So, I didn't do the juice cleanse yet, but I'm still on the healthy life train. I've been writing down everything I eat, hitting the gym more, walking the dog, and trying to limit my stress. I have committed myself to my own well being, which sounds selfish, but I think it might be my ticket to the good life.
I always wear myself out by trying to please everyone else. This hardly ever works out the right way and I'm usually left tired and annoyed. I'm learning that taking care of myself first is not selfish, it's actually the best thing I can do. No one will be left picking up my pieces and anything extra will be because I want to, not because I feel like I should.
I know this might sound like a duh moment, but deal with me for a minute here. I'm growing.
I'm learning that I can only commit myself to my own expectations. If I make them clear and concrete, I can accomplish them. If I take the time to care about myself enough to have that hour of quiet time, to let myself doodle in a notebook on a Tuesday night, or to treat myself to the $12 manicure that makes me feel like a million bucks, it makes me a much better person to be around. And THAT is all anybody really wanted from me anyway, right?
So, I may not be able to fix everyone's problems, to make everyone smile at work, or to make it to every birthday party. I might do my laundry before I do yours. I'll make salad for dinner tonight, even though I know you'd rather eat a cheeseburger. But on a Saturday morning when it's cold and snowy, I'll make you cinnamon rolls with lemon icing. I'll do it because I love you and it makes me happy, not because I feel like I'm supposed to.
Recipe for Lemon-Glazed Cinnamon Rolls, makes 16
1 3/4 cup warm water (shooting for around 110 degrees)
1/4 + 2tbsp granulated sugar
1/4 cup canola oil
3 tbsp instant yeast
1 1/2 tsp salt
5 cups flour
Cinnamon Sugar Insides:
1/2 cup granulated sugar
2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 stick butter, melted
1 stick butter, melted
dash of salt
3 cups confectioners sugar
2-3 tbsp milk
Zest and juice of 1 lemon
Combine water, sugar, oil, and yeast in mixer bowl. Let sit 10-15 minutes until bubbly. Add salt, eggs, and half of flour and mix until combined. Slowly add rest of flour and mix on medium high speed until dough is sticky and forming a ball (about 3-5 minutes). Remove from bowl and put on oiled surface (I used my kitchen counter). Let rest 10 minutes.
Press dough out onto oiled surface into a long rectangle. This doesn't need to be perfect. You don't need a rolling pin. Just keep it real.
Spread melted butter onto dough and sprinkle with cinnamon and sugar. Roll lengthwise into one long cinnamon roll. Slice into 2 inch pieces with sharp knife or string. Arrange on sheet tray lined with oiled parchment. Let rise 10-15 minutes while you preheat your oven to 400F.
Bake 10-12 minutes or until golden brown. In the meantime, make your icing.
Icing: Whisk together all ingredients, or beat in mixer.
Ice cinnamon rolls 5-10 minutes after removing from oven. You want them to still be warm so the icing melts a bit, but not too hot otherwise it will melt too much.